Negative Cycle

I apologize for not updating through the week. It's been a tough week, but I'm grateful that we were prepared for the results in the end.

I started testing on Sunday morning. I got negative after negative, with hopes that it was just too early, so I kept on. On Tuesday I let my IM know that there was no news yet but to keep hoping. Each day other girls who cycled with me and transfered on the same day would get a positive, and I knew our cycle had not worked. By Thursday it really sunk in, and I had my cry and let it out so that today I could be strong. I called IM last night and we talked and she seemed at peace about it, which was good for me to hear.

DH went to the clinic this morning with me for my blood work and then I went to to work. When I got off work I got the message left for me saying that the cycle had failed. When I came home I talked with IM who, I believe, was better for the preparation as well. I'm glad it did not blindside us.

We are being proactive and looking toward another (fresh) cycle in the next couple months, but perhaps not with the same clinic. I'm very disappointed that our cycle did not work, but God really does have a reason for everything, and I'm trusting and leaning on His understanding as much as I'm able.

Father thank you for preparing J's and my hearts for the news we got today. I pray you would comfort her and J today and keep them at peace in the knowledge that there is still hope. Thank you for bringing them into my life and for showing me the courage they have to keep going even after such news. Thank you for your perfect peace that covers us as we deal with the "why's" of what happened and work to make it successful next time. Guard our hearts from getting down and keep our spirits lifted upward. In Jesus Name, Amen.